I'd rather die trying than die for nothing.

it's you and me in one spotlight.

It's only Day 1 of the darn revised time-table, and it's totally not working lah school oh school.
I really don't know what the heck they are thinking man.

School ending at 640 at least 3 days a week, it's never healthy.
And now, we have to compete with other classes for consultation slots within the 90mins subject block? Total bullshit man.

We're human, not your dogs or some robots.
We have families, out families do not come to school to have dinner and have family time in school.

I seriously don't see the point in making us stay.
Afraid that we would not study? Hello we are 18, taking the most important exam in our life, and you're implying that we're simply too immature to think of studying for the A Levels.

Screwed up government.
Hence, once again, the government implements a new policy that leads to a severe market failure.

Shit I suddenly miss the Anderson days.

I have to apologise to anyone that I might have offended. It's only 2 days into the week and I'm already feeling like being held captive in prison.

The perspiration, the energy, the sleepless nights, the anxiety, the mental strength, the emotions.



Getting back Prelim results, it feels like I've not done any revision, not practiced on past year papers, watched TV all day long, played football till there's no tomorrow.

As a matter of fact, I put in time and energy, I put in effort, my perspiration and blood; I put in all the energy I had to make sure the hyper-activeness in me do not destroy my determination to achieve better results.

Do I deserve this?

God, maybe God just wants me to continue to work hard.

I'm really happy to be able to study the way i did over the June holidays, in spite of Pre-U seminar, in spite of the distractions all around me.

I probably just have to keep this momentum going.
I'm already halfway through this battle I chose for myself.
I can't just give up on 12 years of education my parents put me through.
I can't just let one Prelim exam affect me, demoralise me.
It would be the same as digging my own grave.

So i won't sit here and let fate decide for me.

Because I will choose my fate, my final destination.

To persevere, it's going to be a long and tough 4 months.
But at the end of the day,
I will eventually tell myself this: everything will be worth it, so worth it.